On the tear-off calendar from Omdenken, which I got from a dear friend, today it says:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Don't think there is no time<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n There just isn't a priority.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Of course I often thought I had no time. Who doesn't? Time is simply money in our capitalist performance society. That was spoon-fed to me from an early age.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Moreover, I've always had a somewhat rushed feeling. For later, for what I still had to do, for the plans that lay ahead that week. To finish the lists I had in my head. That feeling was very familiar to me. It seemed to belong to who I was.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I notice I'm writing in the past tense. And I fall silent for a moment: yes, that's right. Now that I'm in the final phase of my life, a phase in which I hardly make plans anymore and, so to speak, no longer have a future, time has taken on a different colour. Of course there's still a tomorrow (oh, is there?), and there are the practical, factual things I have to do. That much, yes. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And there is emptiness. Now that my busy, occupied self no longer has as much to do as she was always used to \u2013 she can't do as much anymore because of her diminishing energy and her body that is old \u2013 she experiences emptiness like never before. No, fortunately she doesn't fall into the familiar hole, because she has practised for so long moving toward emptiness. In the past she had to consciously make time for that. Time that, she always believed, she was short of.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The blessing of old age.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Now emptiness is there <\/p>\n\n\n\n From the moment she opens her eyes until she goes back to bed. And also in the nights when she doesn't sleep much because she's in pain. Emptiness, which embraces her, warms her, comforts her, never leaves her. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Oh, I've talked about it so often, in my books, on my meditation evenings. I called it emptiness, silence or deep sea. Being There where you are who you are. And then not needing to know where that is and who you are. Being safe without an address.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Don't think there is no time. There just isn't a priority.<\/em>How grateful I am that for so many decades I was able to keep persuading myself to set that priority after all, and make time to become familiar with emptiness. Now I'm reaping the rewards of that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ik kan het ook anders zeggen: ik heb chronologische tijd vrij willen maken om in tijdloze tijd te leren leven. De oude Grieken gaven die twee ervaringen van tijd zelfs ieder een eigen god: Chronos en Kairos. Chronos telt de uren. Kairos kent alleen dit moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n In emptiness I am in deep contact with love. Sometimes I feel love for the person sitting across from me so directly that I can just say: 'I love you' (though I rarely do, because it's still a bit startling all the same).<\/p>\n\n\n\n Understand me correctly: the awareness that emptiness is there is now a daily experience for me. That is the great gift. I no longer have to make an effort for that. That doesn't mean I'm also always in emptiness. As long as I have a body and live in the duality of time and space, I also lose contact with it again. And then, again and again, there is the invitation to surrender.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Emptiness is. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Full-empty (vol-ledig) <\/p>\n\n\n\n I am carried.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Op de scheurkalender van Omdenken, die ik van een lieve vriend heb gekregen, staat vandaag: Denk niet dat er geen tijd is. Er is alleen geen prioriteit. Natuurlijk dacht ik wel heel vaak dat ik geen tijd had. Wie niet? Tijd is nu eenmaal geld in onze kapitalistische prestatiemaatschappij. 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